Am I a Jumpoff?

After reading my favorite relationship blog undressingHER-Lust. Love. Life it left me asking myself if I am or have ever been a jumpoff. I was reading his blog post titled 5 Times Not To Take Her Home and in the post he mentioned a real woman not being like a jumpoff because she would never step foot in your house if she knew another woman lived there. So this got me thinking....... First, I guess I should explain exactly what a jumpoff is. This is a woman that a man has a sexual relationship with but has no intentions of having a commited relationship with. According to this definition I have definantly been a jumpoff many, many times over and I am not proud of it. What really bothers me is the fact that when these jumpoff relationships started I knew what I was getting into and accepted it. Then when I wanted something more and the dude didn't I got mad at him when I should be mad at myself. The crazy thing is I always enter these relationships thinking they will lead to more, it only leads to heartbreak on my part. So why do I always settle for sex without comittment....because I LOVE SEX. When I meet someone I really like I immediately want to be intimate with them. It is hard for me to hold off on sex untill I get commitment but in the long run I always wind up wanting that commitment so it is something I must learn to do.

How did I Get Here?

So exactly how did I wind up the "baby momma" to three different men? Well I met my first "baby daddie" when I was sixteen and got pregnant. Some me think I was doomed from that point on because teenage relationships never last into adult hood. If someone can prove me wrong then all I have to say is "lucky you". But what really drove the last nail in my relationship coffin is the fact that my "baby daddie" was sentenced to a life in prison. Mistake number 1, I was to young for a sexual relationship. Number 2 I had no idea who I was getting involed with. Had I taken the time to get to know him I would have learned of his criminal record. I was young and dumb as they say. What is really sad is that I have made the mistake of not getting to know someone over and over again. So I may no longer be young but I am still relationship dumb.

Don't Call Me Baby Momma!

After the birth of my now 1 month old son I began to wonder how I became the single mother of three boys from three different men and what kind of major relationship mistakes I have made to get to this place. I never thought I would be one of those women with multiple baby daddies but look at me now. And to top it all off I am secretly in love with my most recent baby daddy but I can't tell him because our relationship is purely physical and I know that I am no more to him than just a "baby momma". I hate when he calls me that but I know that I need to make some serious relationship changes or wind up in the dreaded "baby momma" zone forever. So join me as I look over my past failed relationships and do my best not to repeat my history. So that I may one day rise from "baby momma" to wifey.